Roquentin is a crisis that in retrospect we will call “existential.” He is having a crisis of meaning – why am I here, what point is there in doing anything – but also something much stronger, a crisis of existence, actual doubts that he exists. That anything exists.
These are bedrock philosophical issues. It is a little odd to see the latter affect an adult so strongly. Most of us reconcile ourselves to the existence of either the world, our self, or both, at an early age. Haven’t we? There is a solipsistic aspect to existentialism, but I should beware of my own solipsism.
Nausea (1938) is in the form of Roquentin’s journal, so I do not see the crisis exactly, but Roquentin’s retrospective expression of his crisis. The meaning of this novel really shifts depending on how reliable I think the journal is. Several of the longest scenes look suspiciously like scenes from novels, with lots of dialogue and minute action and gestures. Lines are said adverbily, shoulders are shrugged. I did not need the verb “to shrug” for getting by in France, for conversation, but boy do I need it for literature.
No surprise when the narrator declares, at the end of his journal and Sartre’s novel, that he will himself start work on a novel, presumably a refracted version of the one I just read. Well, no, I was surprised, because Proust had ended his big series of novels this way only eleven years earlier and I was amazed that Sartre so blatantly copied him. Ten years is the statute of limitations on endings, I guess?
I point anyone interested to the scene where the narrator and an acquaintance spend two pages ordering lunch in a café. They look at the menu; they choose appetizers; they choose a main course; they choose wine.
Je parcours le liste des viandes. Le boeuf en daube me tenterait. Mais je sais d’avance que j’aurai du poulet chasseur, c’est la seule viande supplémentée. (p. 147, Gallimard edition)
I looked through the list of meat dishes. The boeuf en daube tempted me. But I already knew that I would have the hunter’s chicken, the only dish with an extra charge. (my translation)
I identified closely with this scene. I have experienced it many times. How tedious to read!
But Roquentin’s crisis is caused by an uneasy relationship with things, so it is nice to see him in a scene with a person, someone he knows from the library where he is researching a book, a history. It helps him get his nausea, his existential queasiness, under control.
A few pages earlier, Roquentin had tamped his despair by a careful study of his own hand, which is part of his self yet exists outside of his self. He moves from his hand to words – a big jump! – to thoughts. Perhaps this steadies him during lunch. “[S]i j’existe, c’est parce que j’ai horreur d’exister” (140). “If I exist, it is because I have a horror of existing.” It is “hate,” “the disgust of existing,” that convinces him he exists.
How much is Nausea a philosophical novel and how much is it a psychological novel? Is there a meaningful distinction? I don’t know. With existentialism, maybe there is little difference. The text gives a lot of room, as far as I can tell.
Tomorrow I’ll rummage through some of my favorite things in the novel, whatever it might mean.

